High Anxiety

Currently I’m starting this post sat in my car at tadley swimming pool, and my anxiety is through the roof! I used to go swimming a lot and to aqua fit but stopped going depending what fitness challenge I was doing!

However someone I haven’t seen in a long time potentially still goes to this swimming pool and the idea of bumping into him is causing my anxiety to be the worst it’s been in a long time ! Over the last 8 months I’ve been asked by a number of people to start swimming or aquafit here again but I’ve always made up an excuse and sat here now is the reason why!

It’s a public swimming pool and the one I’ve always gone to since I could swim! but I feel like I’m in the wrong coming here?! I know that once my friend gets here and I go in and start I’ll be fine but as an always early person this is killing me !

People who don’t suffer from it, it’s feeling sick to the stomach, it makes you feel faint and weary and untill something happens to snap you out of it, you just have to sit back and deal! I guess the best way to explain is like your waiting for a rollercoaster! Your all nervous but as soon as the coaster goes your back to yourself!

So I'm now back home and I was right as soon as my friend Laura arrived a weight lifted off me, I knew she was there for me and would help me work through anything that I felt! She is the type of person who tells me how it is and gets straight to the point! Even if its not what you want to here but I believe everyone needs a friend like that and speaking to her puts everything back in perceptive! I guess its her old age and wisdom (Haha joking! Love your Laura!)

I'm my own worse enemy and get myself in a state of high anxiety due to over thinking even though I'm sure everything would be fine and once I have the comfort of a friend, or being in a space I know, it helps ease whatever I'm going through.

So aquafit itself was hilarious! We worked out it had been about 2 years since we last went and I was definitely like a floating pineapple! There was a women by us when we were catching up who gave us (Me) the dirtiest look, and we both cant work out if it was due to us talking or what we were talking about!! But overall it was good fun and nice to do something different to bootcamp or boxing!

When I move into my place on Thursday, I'm upping my diet and exercise game, which will make me feel better about myself and in turn will help with any anxiety as I know when I feel good, I'm confident about myself!

So heres a picture with crazy pineapple hair post swim!