I'm Like Marmite

I'm a person who is like marmite, you either love me or you hate me! I have a unique way about me which you either get or you don't and to be honest if you don't like me I don't care!

I used to spend my life making everyone like me and not wanting to upset or get in the bad books of anyone but then growing up I began to realise some people really hated me even though I had never done anything to them! When I started work, this was the turning point of realising to some people I'm annoying as hell and to others I'm still annoying but they love me for it!

In my second job I remember a girl turning around to me and saying "Your actually really nice" after 2 years of being on the same team but never making the time to talk to me but judge me by a person who hated me! That's one thing that really gets on my nerves don't judge me on what other people say, actually talk to me and then make your own decision!

If you are good to me, I will drop anything and everything for a friend in need, ill pay for dinner if you cant as I know you will return the favour one day, in one way or another! If I'm out shopping and I see something you like I will just buy it without a second thought!

I used to feel like it was one-sided due to the fact everyone else has there own life! I'm one of the only single people in all my different friendship groups which means i can drop anything at the click of a finger but a lot of my friends cant and its something I have learnt to adapt too and know when its really bad people will be there for me no matter what!

My friends put up a lot with me, especially during bad periods and I can count on one hand how many people I would reach out to at my time of need and 9/10 one of them would be there for me if I asked, whether it was a phone call, a visit or a surprise outing to get my mind of things!

The last two years if it wasn't for my friends in all different places I wouldn't have grown as strong as I have, even friends who I no longer talk to, have helped me on my journey. Each person has paid a different part and I'm honestly thankful for each and everyone one. Even the bad memories help in the long run! Anyway! I'm being too nice about the people in/out my life!

I'm the way I am and I have learnt the hard way not to change no matter if its in a relationship or with certain people! The last 2 years I have rebuilt myself and when the people closest to me say we have the old Jade back even with the depression means I'm doing something right!

So at the end of the day you can love me or hate me but I am who I am and that's not going to change for anyone! Be yourself as at the end of the day everyone is unique and its what makes us special!